Derekthebetch's Journals

nov. 20th

will be one year <3

Saranghae [Korean]

Wo Ai Ni [Mandarin]

Ngoh Oi Neih [Cantonese]

Gua Ai Li [Taiwanese]

Daisuki [Japanese]

Phom Rak Khun [Thai]

Je T'amie [French]

Ich Liebe Dich [German]

Mina Rakastan Sinua [Finish]

I Love You Shawn Bryce Stuarts

November 20th 2008

wow to think i actully thought i mattered to cinema bizarre for 3 minutes lol

kay if yah diddnt know i absolutly love cinema bizarre <3 so i left a comment on there new vid 'cbtv i came 2 party prt. 2' i was the first one [yayy!] and i said this

"wow i just love this video!
thank you for puting up some behind the scene stuff =]
yu tattoos are way cool.
i plan on getting 'love' in Korean symbols down my right side of my body/ribs.
i hope to see you guys live again soon.. the hollywood show was a blast!

p.s. Shin....you need to talk more, you have to many fans for you to be so quite"

and when i woke up this morning i found this on my phone frm yu's twitter page

"Viva Live! hope you enjoyed our BarbieMassacre! ...korean signs look cool! :o"

holy crap i think he might actully have read it...and cared! lol that or its a coincidence and im getting worked up like a lil 13 year old school girl for nothing lmao ><

soo yahh thts all i got for now =/ lol

p.s. if yu reads this....the korean word for 'love' and i love you' is Saranghae.

so id like to say saranghae cinema bizarre! lol ><

i am now a grown man! lol and more important things inside

graduated!! wootwoot!

and i hate night school with a passion...idk how mike and amdrew do it...

i miss my gay hippie... it suck i get mikey back out in cali and shawn my homo hippie moves to vagas...its not permant but still.

i get to see my bby so much more now that school is out and i love it =]

and i wanna say somthing to everyone that has been bugging.

i come on here for friends...not for lil kids to stalk me and ask me imbarassing and personal questions about my life.

i tend to be pretty open to people when it comes to questions but theres a limmit.

also.. im sick and tierd of people anoying me about puting up pics of me and shawny.

if i wanted to then i would have okay?

just because im gay doesnt mean i like posting picks of me and my partner with our tounges down eachothers throughts okay?

i view my love life as very personal and i personally dont want the whole wide web to see it.

so plz stop bugging me about okay?

im a nice person and will answer questions but if there going to be disgusting or imature ether reword them to be more mature or just dont ask them at all.

i dont want anyone to think you cant ask me stuff...

i love it when people ask me things and talk to me...thats what this site if for =]

sorry for the bitchfest

im not always an asshole =]

derekshii~

so lame...lol

1. What is your last name? walker

2. A 4 Letter Word: walk

3. A Boys Name : william =]

4. A Girls name: whitney

5. An Occupation: waiter

6. A Color: white

7. Something your wear: white socks[lol?]

8. A Beverage: whiped orange bang [lol idk]

9. A Food: wetzel pretzels!

10. Something found in the bathroom: wipes [lol like baby wipes]

11. A place: whitter? lol

12. A Reason for being late: waiting for my mom to get ready [lol this happens alot]

if you have a heart please read and repost

Two days ago both I and my partner Shawn Shent were harassed because of our sexuality.

Both of us were shaken around spit at and had many disgusting things yelled at us.

We got no help from the police being as ' there wasn’t much physical harm to us' and that 'it would just be to hard to find them'

i know that they have murders to solve and criminals to put away but they treated us as if we were yesterdays trash.

We are humans too

No matter what gender you are attracted to or if you choose to live as the opposite sex...

We are still humans and deserve to be treated and respected as ones.

i hope you agree with me and help support your people/friends/family members that have been through something of this sort

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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. (yes, this actually happened)

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson"

I am the teen who lost all his friends because I told them about me

repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong

"Love is love, no matter what gender you are"-Shawn O'Hare

I send my love to all of you,

Derek D. P. Walker

lil quizy thing

ge: How long has it been since you kissed someone?
wait... um okay 2 seconds lol

Have you ever cheated on someone or helped someone cheat?
hell to the no!

Whats the last thing you ate?
chcolate bunnbunn!

Have you ever taken a shower with anyone before?
heheh...yuppp

Has anyone ever said something that brought tears to your eyes?
of corse

Who's bed were you last in besides yours?
my trannys

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
at andys chilling wiff my homos

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
never!

Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead?
lmao! yeshhh! poor andyboo

Do you and your parents get along?
yupp

Do you wanna tell someone how you feel at the moment?
just did <3

What holiday is your birthday closest to?
holloween [oct 9th]

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yupp

How old do you think you'll be when you have kids?
not posible lol

Are you waiting for something?
yes...my food lol

If you could change your eye color, would you?
yes...it would be white!!!

Do you spend a lot of time with your parents?
yupp
Do you flip your pillow to the cold side?
sometimes

How many times have you eaten sushi?
a few =]

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
kathyboo

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
my footies

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
yes

Do you have an accent?
does a 'gay' accent count? lol

Are you good at giving directions?
hell to the no lol

Have you ever been back-stabbed by a friend?
sadly yesh

Have you cried today?
nope...happy day

Confused about anything?
not really

Where do you want to go vacation-wise?
germany!

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
AIM

How do you feel about change?
it depends..

Did you get any compliments lately?
yuppp

How is the weather right now?
hott =[

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
skool and hang out wiff mah homos

Would you ever get a tattoo?
yes.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
yes

Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
yupp
What did you do today?
chilled with the buddys

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?
lol 2 seconds ago [bf reading over my shoulder]

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
just did =]

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
yupp [mikey-san]

Are you single?
nope.=]

What school does the last person you kissed attend?
banning high

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yeah.

Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
no.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
shawny

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
skool

What's the last piercing you got?
cheaks and nipple =]]

Is anyone mad at you right now?
not that i know of

Do you like to cuddle?
hell yah!!!

Are you keeping a secret right now?
maybeee..

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yup

Could you last in a relationship for 6 months?
of corse

Day been rough?
not at all

Do you dye your hair?
yupp

Would you get any plastic surgery?
no

Do you have something that belongs to your bf/gf?
yupp

When you say you dont care do you mean it?
sometimes

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
of corse!

Can you read people's expressions?
sometimes

Whats something that bothers you about girls?
to much drama...and boobs..lol they scare mee ><

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
yes

When will you next be at school?
tomarow

What are you doing after this?
keep cuddlin till my mom kicks the tranny out

What did you do on halloween?
threw candy out the window while driving >< [mobile candy bitches!!]

Who has the same birthday as you?
idk

Who took your display picture?
i did

8 new pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! comment dem pwezze!!

yupyupppp!

Well listen up, now that your hearing has returned... This queer says "FUCK YOU"

Pink champagne... yeah, uh, that's too nelly, even for me

Emmett:What kind of homosexual are you?
Brian: The kind that fucks men.

Well, as far as I'm concerned, it ain't over until the... slightly-overweight-but-still-working-on-it lady sings.

Which one of you is the gardener and which one's the chef?
I really like cooking
And I love planting my seed in some hole...
[everyone looks at him strangely]
... in the ground.

As Deb once said to me, "Em, you've been on more wieners than French's mustard."

We don't need rings or vows to prove that we love each other. We already know that.
..You did it
Did what?
Became the best homosexual you could possibly be

lmao

mannn...i love queer as folk...so many laughs..so many tears...and so much sex!!! lmao

happy b-day mikey chan!!!

okay everyone go on my buddys page [mikeychanxvkqueen] and wish him a happy b-day!

p.s im im single again =] and im happy about it too =]

someone....anyone...

plz talk to me....i need to talk to sumone about sum issuses... plz asap.